Old Gray Man...What's happening to me?
I remember just a few years ago, I could stay up all night. I'd play games from sun down until sun up and it wouldn't phase me in the slightest.
I could go from an all-night gaming session straight to class and not even blink.
Not any more.
Thing is, I'm not even old or anything. Yeah, I'm not 20 any more, but I'm still in my twenties.
Hell, I should be up until 5 am baying at the moon.
I honestly have no idea what that means, but I should be doing it.
Instead, as soon as the clock hits midnight, I start going narcoleptic. My eyes start to drift closed whenever I sit still for more than a minute.
This may or may not have something to do with the huge sleep deficit I've built up over the years. By my calculations, if the average person sleeps 8 hours a night, I owe roughly three years of sleep.
That's a big freaking deficit, let me tell you. Especially when you're paying it back in twenty second blackouts while you're trying to eat your cereal.
The worst is playing FFXI late at night. If I'm not totally rested, there's a pretty good chance I will pass out while playing.
Back when I first started playing, staying up late was nothing. I'd hunt NMs or run through quests until light started to creep over the horizon.
I even joined a late night Dynamis LS. We'd run Xarcabard until 3 am and I'd be there until the last mob fell.
Or until the White Mages could raise everybody.
But now... Now, I'm pretty much dead weight after 1 am.
I'd blame getting older, but I'm guessing part of the blame may belong to the tiny human I live with that insists on waking up with the sun every morning.
She's like a cute little alarm clock.
Possessed by Satan.
The only extra sleep I get is the very few blessed mornings that Susan lets me sleep in.
Ironically, I usually stay up even later the night before because I know I can sleep in.
Basically, I'm seeing just how far I can run this body into the ground before it just stops functioning. I'll be walking down the street one day and my eyes will suddenly go all Blue Screen of Death.
All so I can spend so many hours playing video games. All so I can rescue princesses and kill the evil bosses, save the world and destroy ultimate evil.
Now, any sensible person would tell me that is REALLY stupid. They'd say that they're just games and totally not worth losing sleep over.
I'm pretty sure we've established that I'm not sensible.
Sure, I could put away the games and sleep more. I could log out at 10 o'clock and get a good night's sleep. I could wake up renewed and refreshed.
But why would I do that?
I have lived countless lifetimes in these games. I have seen kingdoms rise and fall, eras begin and end.
I have killed the ultimate evil, the Shadow Lord himself.
37 times at last count.
So, I'm sleepy all the time. So, I drift off while driving.
It's a small price to pay for the countless lifetimes and countless lives I've lived.
Sleep is great.
Gaming is better.